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In Memoriam

Susee Mable: May 20, 1941 - April 13, 2015

When Great Trees Fall


by Maya Angelou

"When great trees fall,
 rocks on distant hills shudder,

lions hunker down

in tall grasses,

and even elephants

lumber after safety.



When great trees fall

in forests,

small things recoil into silence,

their senses

eroded beyond fear.



When great souls die,

the air around us becomes

light, rare, sterile.

We breathe, briefly.
Our eyes, briefly,

see with

a hurtful clarity.

Our memory, suddenly sharpened,

examines,

gnaws on kind words

unsaid,

promised walks

never taken.


Great souls die
and
 our reality, bound to

them, takes leave of us.

Our souls,

dependent upon their

nurture,

now shrink, wizened.

Our minds, formed

and informed by their

radiance,

fall away.

We are not so much maddened

as reduced to the unutterable ignorance

of dark, cold

caves.



And when great souls die,

after a period peace blooms,

slowly and always
 irregularly. Spaces fill

with a kind of
 soothing electric vibration.

Our senses, restored, never

to be the same, whisper to us.
 
They existed. They existed.
 
We can be. Be and be
 better. 
For they existed."


Posted by: Suhasini

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